| "your so squiggly" |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|11:29 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Billy Idol - dancing with myself | ] |
i'm tired of this dance, but the music won't stop.
it's a good thing i have someone to dance with that makes this song a little more tolerable.
thanks killer
xoxoxo |
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| killer x-mas |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|06:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Explosions in the Sky - time stops | ] |
killer is a genius witha paint brush and bleach.
never would i have thought he would give me this for x-mas... i absolutely love this sweater!!!
he painted on a design of spaceboy ontoa zip up hoodie and it looks amazing!!!
i absolutely love it.
and i can;t wait to dive into ths book too...
can he be any more killer? |
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| Millenium Maniacs are we |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|03:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Raised Fist - breaking me up | ] |
this feels good
we're under the same stars
in the same boat
and we're floating down the river
this feels good
www.fotolog.net/kidmanifesto_ |
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| The Alter Ego's of F |
[Nov. 27th, 2004|04:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cary Brothers - blue eyes | ] |
kid vee- the girl
sister valentine - the girl with a mushy heart
pussy electronica - no needed explaination
gal capone - the girl with a sharp tounge to draw
blood of the bad
this is me. |
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| ok |
[Nov. 14th, 2004|03:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Dresden Dolls - good day | ] |
i have turned a new leaf
there is new in the air
i smile at the past and thank that it happened
my healed heart feels good
it glows a little brighter than before
more action, less tears... |
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| Pain |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|06:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jimmy Eat World - pain | ] |
"I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.
Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away..."
is all |
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| ARMY OF ME |
[Oct. 28th, 2004|02:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sarah Slean - mary | ] |
this new army of me
a snarl of sharpened teeth
nails like ivory swords
this combat fatigue
has taken over me
my eyes are heavy with mad lethargy
all is black
eyes open wide like moons
my collar up for the war
my helmet tipped to the side
my heart pounding in my throat
i'll curse the world
i'll sink the knife in
i'll make the sky turn to blood |
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| Sick of it all |
[Oct. 25th, 2004|08:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Distillers - drain the blood | ] |
it's all over now. in stone. in blood. knife in teh heart gone in a littl e deeper. theblood inscoming out... the bad blood is coming out to cover my feet... to my knees.
fuck off heart. i'm sick of you. you make me hurt too much...
fuck off already. |
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| ouch |
[Oct. 17th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
don't be lonely
don't look to her
just don't...
look away and say goodnight
"yea, you come to mind"
i still love you boy. it hurts. |
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| Music is... |
[Oct. 14th, 2004|12:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Rapture - open up your heart | ] |
my brother said to me the other day while watching Enternal Sunchine of the Spotless Mind,out of the blue he looks over at me and says:
it's kind of crazy how music can effect the way you feel...
it's so true....
but what happens when you begin to feel the same way with every kind of music?
what happens then?
big badaboom?
or just the bad?
is all... |
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| GUH!!!!! |
[Oct. 5th, 2004|10:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nauseated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bjork - possibly maybe | ] |
worst feeling in the world:
knowing of someone you love thinking less of you while the mother of one of your best friends (who happens to be not in the greatest shape head wise)says you're a great person...
guh i feel like i'm going to vomit... |
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| Secretive and popping |
[Oct. 1st, 2004|04:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The French Kicks - trial of the century | ] |
i didn't think i would ever come back to this point ever again. I knew there would be days in which i would come close but never actually in the same spot.
I've returned to where i want to be on an altered level... numbed senses. Be constantly feeling less....
it was because of this point i became immune to tylenol.
I would hide t3's or extra strength tylenols by my bed and the days i couldn't handle being fully awake, or fully taking everything in i would pop back a couple and let them cover me with numb.
and by a couple i mean 3 t3's or 5-7 extra strength tylenols...
i was a scretive pill popper... and now the pills are calling me out to play again. |
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| swiss natural sources |
[Sep. 27th, 2004|12:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bjork - triumph of the heart | ] |
yeah it's says stress buster on the bottle
yea they're natural pills
but it won't get me the fuck out of this country now will it? |
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| A Reminder |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|11:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Radiohead - a reminder | ] |
If I get old, I will not give in
But if I do, remind me of this.
Remind me that, once I was free,
Once I was cool, once I was me.
And if I sat down, and crossed my arms,
Hold me into, this song.
Knock me out, smash out my brains,
If I take a chair, start to talk shit.....
If I get old, remind me of this:
That night we kissed, and I really meant it.
Whatever happens, if we're still speaking.
Pick up the phone, play me this song.
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not much to say these days....
found some old pictures : www.fotolog.net/kidmanifesto_
i miss him more than ever now that this is it. |
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| a full heart |
[Sep. 4th, 2004|05:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Radiohead - there there (the boney king of nowhere) | ] |
i have hope in us.
as far as i'm concerned, he's the only boy in my life right now that has my heart on the level that he does.
the fact that he hopes time is on our side to heal the cuts, gives me more hope and strength to work this out.
i'm invinceable, i'm our personal cupid.
i'm going back darling, i can only show you by words and pictures that i am only yours...
i'll see you in feb love...
te amo tanto mi nino!!
www.fotolog.net/kidmanifesto_ |
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| For my love, |
[Aug. 30th, 2004|09:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Smashing Pumpkins - spaceboy | ] |
i have been crying non stop for two days
i've made a river of tears. Apology River
i will run dry in his name but i don't care
i will bleed out the bad blood from me
i will wear a crown of barbed wire
i will have suffering be my everything
i will walk with a knife in my heart
i will do all this until i get you back
i hope for nothing but a chance
i need you now in my life
not as a friend, but as my love
please don't talk the way you do
please give me another chance, will you?
please...
todavia te amo mi nino....aun q tu pienses q es mentira, todavia te amo con mi todo! |
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| achoo. |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|11:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Illuminati - on borrowed time | ] |
guh i'm getting sick.
and what's worse is that imissed the illuminati show saturday cuz i wasn't feeling to great and decided not to call anyone.
that show would have rocked the sickness right out of me. |
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[Aug. 10th, 2004|03:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jeff Buckley - jewel box | ] |
The cosmos wrote to me today...
i thanked them for my brother justice. They seprated me at birth and renunited us both at the exact point in my life in which i needed him. Thank you Cosmos.
"My pleasure.
All my love,
The Cosmos" |
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| Come the 18th.... |
[Aug. 8th, 2004|04:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  artistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Smashing Pumpkins - plume | ] |
my uncle leaves today back to chile. he's all fun and everything and i'm going to miss him but then i'm kinda happy cuz he's bringing my boy the stuff i was gunna send him by mail. i saved money that i don't have and i got to send more than i thought i would heheh...
my brother leaves today also, to mexico with his girlfriend for about 10 days. I have to otake care of her sister's fish cuz the rest of her family are going away also. Dana warned me that one of the fish has no fins cuz the othe rone bit them off, so now it just floats at the top and eats all tehfood before the other one gets to it. Show what goes around, comes around...
So this week it's just going to be me my grandma and my sister.
I keep thiking about my birthday bash. My brother and is friend are gunna be there, my sister and her friends are gunna be there... my friends are gunna be there.. i'm really thinking of just sipping on wine all night and listening to my discman super loud and just watch everyone...
not interact all that much after everyone is there....
there has been a discussion about taping my dv camera to my buddy danny's shoulder because he is the funiest when drunk... but then there will be nothing to video tape him being funny...
ah well... things will all be resolved come the 18th...
including where Think Tank is gunna play heheh... |
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| My Sonic Youth |
[Aug. 6th, 2004|04:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sonic Youth - mariah carey + arthur doyle | ] |
alright so i've been home for a little over two weeks now. pretty much been out every night just chilling and hanging out with my good old friends. Jonny loved his llama hat, His brothe rloved the punisher and everyone just enjoys the fact that i'm back home.
So earlier this week, my brother decides to return his ipod and get me a sonic youth ticket as an early birthday present.
I'm so damn happy he did because good lord i would have hate to miss a show that good.
kim gordon is now my idol.
sonic youth, please keep rockin' it.
i really want to be as killer as kim gordon when i'm fifty though..
heheh jonny said he'd be bob dylan when he's old. |
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